Blue + Gray Project | Month 5 | Anora Jayne

Today is a very special day for us here in the Clark house.  One year ago today we got our first peek at the beautiful little girl that would make us parents!  It’s hard to believe it has been a year since then.  Our baby has gone from a wiggly little alien to a beautiful, sweet, smart baby girl.  She’s 5 months old and her tiny little hands hold our hearts.

This month she has learned to sit on her own for small amounts of time, roll from her tummy to her back, hold her weight on while standing and probably one of the most exciting developments for me…piggy tails!!!  This little lady is already a diva!  As soon as she puts her sunglasses on she enters “diva mode” and gets the cutest little pout and attitude.  She is definitely my child!

Also, this month we welcomed two little girls into our Ohana.  Miss Josie was born on May 8th to our friends Glory & Cameron and  Miss Lilia was born on May 13th to our neighbors Lei & Osama!  Both of these little girls are just so beautiful and I feel so blessed to have met them!

Seeing these babies has made me realize how much Anora has grown over the past 5 months.  She is so big and so smart, she just melts my heart!  So here we go!  Anora at 5 months old in all her cute little glory!

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Blue + Gray Project | Month 4 | Personal

I know I’m a bit behind on these, but boy is it hard to keep up lately!  I can’t believe how much this little girl has grown already!  She is such a joy and has so much personality and sass already.

This month we started introducing solid foods and she is definitely a fan!  She loves applesauce and sweet potatoes.  Anora can almost sit up on her own, but she hasn’t quite figured out how to balance herself yet.

Here ‘s a quick recap of how much she has changed so far:

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And here she is now!  4 months old and so very big!

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Blue & Grey Project | 3 Months | Personal

Holy Smokes! Where has the time gone?  Is this baby really 3 months old already?!?

Things have been so crazy between Nick’s schedule, my business and keeping our little Dove happy, I never got the chance to post her pictures from last month! She has already grown so much and she is getting bigger and smarter every day.  She is so amazing and brings so much joy to our lives.

This month, she has mastered her vowel sounds loves to say “Hi” when when you pick her up.  Sh loves to play with her tongue and watch how your mouth moves when you talk to her.  She can now support herself upright and has started tri-poding, when she remembers to let go of her hands.  Her favorite pass times are playing her footie piano, talking to Doc McStuffins & Sophia the First and showing off her belly when she wears a dress.  Sadly her, little mohawk is starting to curl over now that it’s getting longer, but it’s still hanging in there!

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We’ve laughed, we’ve cried, we’ve watched her grow and worried about everything from is she cold to is she eating enough…and it’s only been one month!!!  It’s so hard to believe that it was only a month ago that I was sitting in a hospital bed waiting for this little lady to arrive.  She truly is our little miracle!

I have been planning this project since that day I found out I was pregnant with her.  While I would love to claim credit, I got the idea from my friend Amanda and her White Sweater & Glittery Heels Project she did with her daughter.  I loved how you could see her grow and I knew I wanted to do something similar with Anora.

The cardigan is my favorite sweater (a hand-me-down from my little sister) and a pair for royal blue flats that I just LOVE.  I can’t wait to see our baby grow and one day fit into them!

So here she is, our crazy haired little wild woman.  Exactly one month old in the first installment of the Blue & Gray Project.  Enjoy!

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All images ©Little Flower Photography 2014

Trying for Baby | New Mommy Series

Okay so here it is, the big post we all knew was coming.  I’ll just say it and get past the obvious part of all this WE ARE PREGNANT!!!   I know, I know, some people are like- what’s the big deal?  Well, we finally did it!  It has been a long journey and while we may not be crossing the finish line for a while still, we finally made it to the race.

This whole journey started for me in February 2010 when I decided that we should have a baby.  I didn’t tell my husband- boyfriend at the time- since I knew he would turn me down and look at me like I was crazy.  I also knew it would be a little tricky, but low and behold in April we found out we were pregnant.  It was so romantic!  I cried, he looked me like I just grew 2 more heads, we had a shot gun wedding at the courthouse- okay, so maybe not romantic.  A month later we lost the baby and I we were devastated.  In September, Nick left for an 11 month deployment to Iraq.

The next year was full of waiting and wanting to ripe my hair out.  Nick came home for R&R for 2 weeks in April 2011.  I hoped that between the relief (and excitement :) ) of him being home and celebrating his birthday and our 1st anniversary we would make some magic happen.  Sadly, the magic escaped us and we had we wait the remaining 4 months for him to come home.  Once August rolled around and he was home for good, we took up right where we had left off.  Try, try and try again.

Finally, in July 2012 I went to the doctor.  We had to wait another month to be deemed as having “fertility problems”, since it hadn’t quite been a solid year of trying.  Once the year was up, there were a couple of tests and in September I was officially diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)- meaning I have small cysts that grow on my ovaries and prevent ovulation.  I was then prescribed Clomid to help with the problem and OPKs (ovulation predictor kits) and told to go forth and…well, you know.

In mid October, we got the smiley face saying was go time and a pain staking 19 days later we were seeing two pink lines.  We where over the moon!  So excited that our journey was over.  At Christmas we announced it to the whole family- and Facebook.  But our bubble of happiness was about to be abruptly popped.  On January 3rd, 2013 our first ultrasound revealed they was no baby in sight.  I was so heartbroken I started to have an anxiety attack right there on the table.  After 2 weeks of blood work and ultrasounds I had a D&C to remove the tissue left behind.  There were 4 or more weeks of blood work and lab tests until was deemed “normal” again.  After so much devastation and with a pending move to Hawaii in April, we decided we would wait a while.  I was emotionally exhausted and just couldn’t take the counting and waiting and heartache anymore.  We stopped the Clomid and started packing.

We left Virginia on April 19th and headed to Iowa to visit family and drop off Nick’s Jeep.  It helped my broken heart to spend time with our nieces and nephew- Ana- 2, T-Rose- 1 and Vahnny- 1 1/2.  We were even surprised when Nick’s little brother flew in unexpectedly.  It was April 24th when we went to dinner and the unthinkable happened…I got car sick.  Not being one to get whoosy in the back seat, I took a test that night.  Somehow, we had manged to make a miracle.  We have conceived without fertility meds or OPKS, without counting and charting.

The next 5 weeks where hell.  We were so nervous and cautious, neither of us wanted to get too attached.  I would lay awake at night with my hands on my belly begging the baby to be strong, to have a heartbeat.  I just kept thinking- I can’t go through that again.  Then it came…the doctor’s appointment.  Nick took off work to go with me and hand in hand we walked into the room, he sat next to table, holding my wallet and clothes.  They took the vital and did the usual measuring and checks.  Then the moment came.  They wheeled the ultrasound machine in and it was time.  I reached for Nick’s hand and held my breathe.  As soon as the wand touched my skin I felt a little twitch form Nick’s hand and there it was.  A small baby facing fully forward and dancing on the screen!  I started to cry as the tension just melted away.  The whole ride home we were smiling like fouls and looking at the sonogram saying “we did it” over and over again.

We are now 14 weeks along and everything seems normal and healthy.  We can’t wait to meet this little one we have waited so long for and tried so hard to get.  Our family is growing and we couldn’t be happier!  So for all of you out there that have been trying and waiting and feel like it will never happen, keep going!  It’s hard to find a rainbow in the forest, but it is possible and that much more precious when you do.

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Lucky Charms are even more magically delicious when your pregnant and craving them constantly!

freya snuggles- 13wksFreya is looking forward to being a big sister and loves to cuddle with my belly in the mornings!

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The Little Things | Nieces and Nephews

As we make our way west to our new home in Hawaii, we have stopped for the week in Iowa to spend a little time with family.  The best part? I get to see my two nieces and my nephew!  These kids are so stinking cute and, while they can be a hand full, they are such a delight. ♥

They have helped to remind me of something.  Something we all tend to forget from time to time when life gets busy.  To stop and enjoy the LITTLE things!  The small moments in life that pass all too quickly and seem so menial.  The silly things that may not make much sense, but they are fun and happy.

So this week is about just that!  It’s about the yogurt covered face of my nephew Vahn as he eats lunch.  My 2 year old niece Ana showing off here new summer dress.  The first time baby Tatiana got up on her knees to rock back and forth.  These are the moments that life is made of.  The sweet little things that make it special.

I encourage you all to slow down, take a breath and just enjoy the light things anytime you can.  It makes life so much better and so much more worth living!  So set down the laptop, get out of your chair and go spend time with your family!  Trust me!  You won’t regret it! :-)

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